For what its worth I too was sexually abused first when I was three years old by a female babysitter and as added my father who was hired by the USA security services worked at NASA,and private contractors. He used to make comments about Germans, he also called my mom from a private jet when I was born.This is to show the advanced technology as it was 1964.I have often wondered if woman babysitter was there for reason.I am also "called bi polar" I have extreme rage. Later in life I was abused by a man similar to you and he worked as computer programming in major USSA telephone corporation. He told me his dad "passed" him around as child and his dad was factory Aerospace worker, he died and I really don't resent but he was big in the town I had most of my adolescence.My stepfather knew and said later he didn't care as he thouhgt only oral was going on. I was later thrown out and survived by my body in SF.I hate America. I hate the fake hypocrisy but of course this is my own self hate and this is worldwide, I was relatively lucky.I too have serious trust issues. I think ultimately that you have to see as karma the Xtian way leaves too many gaps, or the Manchian Fundie shit I grew up with that is.I hope this helps the writer, but I know the pain is always there.Cheers!
I wanted to add on the reason many of us look to Putin is he in a way represents someone who escaped the whole entrapment deal. Is it because he was genuily loved by his mom,dad?I don't know but when he made speech about Westerners "don't touch the children" many knew exactly what he was saying. He also referred to many leaders as droids. It is important to understand they are victims also.I feel Western mores lack understanding of sacred aspects sex.The USA know is taking a more serious approach to abuse but as Celente says fish rot head. I also feel that Xtian hatred of feminine or gay is too blame. I rember my Bible teacher who doubled as Physical Ed used to check my genitals to see if they were growing,as I was late bloomer.In PE class the good Xtian teacher and macho boy would gang up on this one weaker guy and pee spit on him, I never did anything's to help Paul.Later in Xtian bording school I was told by the director Elder Voth I had the gay demon, and after that and many violent fights where I half killed my aggressors I left and then was given door by parents as I was sinner. So I think it is common and this is why prisons are running full.The truth is God knows hearts and the leaders that have lost the mandate of heaven will have a long long long long karmic slog back.OK nuss said, you don't have to print whoever you are I am amazed and I truly send the best if in Monaco, London.Cheers!